Spiritual Bondage and the Battle for True Love
In this chapter of my deliverance journey, I uncover how spiritual bondage can sabotage relationships, dreams, and peace of mind — and how recognizing the signs of spiritual manipulation became a turning point toward freedom.
Introduction
By this point in my journey, I was no longer ignorant of the enemy’s schemes. Through prayer, fasting, and reading the Word of God, I began to understand how the spiritual realm influences the physical. Yet, as my awareness grew, so did the warfare. What I was about to experience revealed how deep spiritual bondage can affect even the most sincere relationships and heartfelt desires.
Gaining Spiritual Understanding
Unlike in the earlier stages of my journey, I now spent most of my time reading, praying, and fasting. The difference was that I had begun to discern patterns, spiritual signs that appeared before major life events.
Whenever something good was about to happen, I would have disturbing dreams, scenes of being back in my childhood village, eating unfamiliar food, losing valuables, fighting with animals, or being intimate with a spirit woman.
The most frequent and tormenting of these encounters involved a spirit wife (succubus). Sometimes, even after spending hours praying and declaring Scripture, I would lie down only to face this same spirit — sometimes two or three times in a single night.
It was both exhausting and discouraging. Over time, I began to realize that I was spiritually bound in a covenant marriage I had never knowingly consented to, one that produced what I came to understand as spiritual children. These entities appeared in dreams as familiar faces or children calling me “father.”
This revelation helped me understand why relationships in my waking life never lasted. It was as though every emotional connection I formed was spiritually sabotaged.
Meeting the Woman Who Felt Like “The One”
Then came someone different, a lovely lady I met online. She wasn’t Christian; she was from an Arab country. But our connection was genuine and deep. For the first time in my life, I felt truly loved. We talked every day for over a year. She even converted to my faith.
Despite my financial struggles, I decided to visit her. I used credit to buy a plane ticket, determined to meet her in person. The trip was humbling; I couldn’t afford to take her out or even buy her a meal. But she didn’t mind. She loved me for who I was.
On the third and final day of my visit, as we stood at the airport, she couldn’t stop crying. She couldn’t even look me in the eye as I boarded my flight. I remember thinking, “This is the one. My missing rib.”
Several days later when she was sure I was the one, she told her mother about me, her mother didn’t fully reject or accept our relationship. It left her confused, but we continued to talk daily.
For clarity’s sake, we shared no physical intimacy. We were simply two adults who wanted to build a life together under God’s guidance. I was also cautious not to return to my past behaviours.
The Intensifying Spiritual Attacks
However, as our bond deepened, the attacks from the succubus spirit and the so-called spiritual children intensified. Out of ignorance, I initially thought these attacks were connected to her, perhaps something from her side. I didn’t yet understand that my own spiritual marriage was the real source of interference.
I tried to help her grow spiritually – teaching her how to pray and sharing deliverance teachings. In hindsight, that was a mistake. To her, it began to feel like I was pushing another religion onto her.
One day, she mentioned that her mother had been acting strangely, and that it frightened her. I could hear the worry in her voice. I prayed and fasted for her, because by this time I was continuously fasting without stopping.
During that period, I had a dream. In it, I saw her helping her mother cut meat in the kitchen. She was drinking red juice, and when her phone rang, she stepped out of the room. I saw her mother open a cupboard, take something small, and add it to her drink before she returned – smiling.
When I woke up, I chose not to tell her what I had dreamt. Later that day, during our usual conversation, she mentioned that she would be helping her mother prepare food for a rooftop barbecue. I fell silent for a moment and then, half-jokingly, said, “You’d better not drink your red juice today.” She paused in surprise and asked how I knew about it. I smiled and said, “Because you love juice.” She laughed it off and told me she was drinking her favourite beetroot juice, something her mother made for her every day. Deep down, I knew this was a warning. I prayed silently for her protection, knowing it was too sensitive a matter to bring up directly.
When Love Turned to Sorrow
A month later, she called me in tears, asking if I could change my religion for her. I thought she was joking – but she wasn’t. She cried for days, became depressed, and even started experiencing health problems. Doctors said she had heart issues brought on by emotional distress. She was placed on sleeping pills and antidepressants.
Over the next few months, things grew worse. I began to realize that this was more than just emotional turmoil, there were spiritual forces at work. Eventually, I made the painful decision to end our communication. I loved her deeply, but the situation had become spiritually dangerous. I could have stayed and stood by her side, but it was draining every part of me.
I remember when I visited her, she bought me a bracelet as a gift. During one of those difficult days afterward, I had a dream in which powerful men were wrestling me, trying to take the bracelet from my wrist. These men were incredibly strong, and I woke up still struggling, as if the fight had followed me out of the dream. That was the breaking point for me, it had all become too much, and I knew I had to walk away, it could have been a wrong decision, but this is part of the package in spiritual bondage
Recognizing the Real Enemy
You might wonder how this all ties into my deliverance journey. Here’s the truth:
When you live in spiritual bondage, everything that brings you joy becomes a target. Your blessings are resisted, delayed, or destroyed before they can mature.
In my case, what was meant to be a beautiful, God-centred relationship became another source of pain and confusion.
It’s easy to look at such experiences logically — to say, “What did you expect from a relationship like that?” But spiritual warfare doesn’t operate on logic. The devil’s strategy is to shift your focus — to make you blame people instead of recognizing the real enemy.
Through it all, I learned that deliverance isn’t only about casting out demons, it’s about breaking covenants, reclaiming spiritual territory, and walking in knowledge.
In conclusion
In this season, God opened my eyes to how the enemy weaves himself into relationships, emotions, and dreams. I learned that until a person is completely free, their blessings, no matter how pure will face opposition.
But God’s grace was teaching me discernment. What the enemy meant for heartbreak was actually preparing me for revelation.
